rainy days and...

never mind...it's Friday. :)

it is raining, though. but I'm sitting here in my not-even-a-cube really hoping the afternoon stays as quiet as the morning was. I like Fridays like this. Well, the Fridays that I have to work. The Fridays I don't have to work I've got better things to do than sit and be quiet.

One of the things I should be doing on this quiet Friday at work is to start my to-do lists. I took a break from writing them for a while, after a conversation I had with my boyfriend. He passed along something someone had told him about writing to-do lists that hit a little too close to home for comfort, and I decided to see how my life would go without my lists.

This experiment was...er, interesting. I can't say it was a complete failure but it wasn't a success either. Turns out I do sometimes need to write down the things I need to do. Otherwise I forget to do things like throw a load of dirty towels in the washer when I get home from work. The next morning, stepping out of the shower, is not the time to remember. Just sayin'...

What I did learn, with this, is that I do not need a multi-page list that includes all the potential chores, errands, and projects that I feel like I should be doing. That just makes things overwhelming, and discourages me from even starting the list. So instead I'm going to try something else (another idea I hijacked from my boyfriend ;) and that's to make daily lists with only a few items on each list. That way things like "wash towels" don't get forgotten. lol

I've never claimed to be an organized, neat and tidy, kind of person. And going back to work hasn't helped any, at all. It's time I pull it together, and at least come up with some semblance of organization. Turns out I really do like having clean towels...

2012

It's right around the corner. Time to start reflecting on the past year, and continue to plan where I want to be and what I want to accomplish in the new year.

It's going to take longer than I have at the moment to sum up last year. There was several setbacks, but there was also a lot of forward motion. A lot of big changes happened in 2011, for me. I expect 2012 will hold still more changes.

It wasn't until the end of 2009, and the beginning of 2010 that I began to truly appreciate the fresh slate of a new year. 2009 was a year that just needed to be done with, and I was fortunate enough to have some real new beginnings as 2010 started. That allowed me to see the new year as a fresh, clean slate with me being the one with the colorful chalk, drawing and planning a wonderful new future, filled with adventures.

And now I'm seeing 2012 that way, a blank page that I can fill with the colors of adventures, love, and joy.

TGIF

This has been one of those weeks that would have been so much better if it never started. I'm so glad it's over. Well, almost over. I still need to get through the afternoon at work, but thankfully I've been left alone in the office and it's really quiet. I need some quiet time.

This week has been one of those weeks that make me realize, yet again, that I need to make some changes.

I don't like to make changes. Change scares me. But remaining stagnant is even scarier.