things are looking up

Yesterday I went to talk to the financial aid people yet again, and this time I got some results I can live with. The original grant still hasn't shown up, but they gave me another, one-time only grant for this semester which covered my tuition. So I was able to register for classes. Yay me!

I have to pay for my books out of pocket, and then get reimbursed when the original grant comes through, but at least I'm able to go to school this semester.

I've been taking lots of baby steps towards my new life. Now I feel like I'm taking a giant leap forward.
I'm so ready.

New life, here I come. :)

trying so hard not to whine

I am supposed to be getting a grant to cover my tuition and books so I can go back to school full-time this semester. Which starts tomorrow for online classes, Monday for on-campus classes. The financial aid still hasn't shown up in my student records account so that I can register for classes.

Talked to the fin. aid person yesterday. The aid should have shown up before now and she didn't know why it hadn't. Bumped the problem up to her supervisor, with vague assurances to check my student account last night or today, and it should be there.

Yeah, still not there.

<sigh> Why can't things just go the way they're supposed to?

I'm trying to think of this as just a small bump in the road but it's getting hard to not be discouraged. Maybe I just need to learn to not rely on anyone else to get to where I want to be in life.

still waiting....

Financial aid is a wonderful thing. It'd be much more wonderful if it'd show up so I can register for classes for the semester that starts this weekend. I've got a call in to the fin. aid office at the college but I think I'll be better off if I go talk to someone tomorrow. Well, that's the plan anyway. Whether it gets me anywhere remains to be seen.

Spoiled, I am just so spoiled

Maybe this is what an adult relationship is really supposed to be like, and my view of normal is so skewed that I can't see that, but I can't help but think how very lucky, and spoiled, I am to have someone like my SO in my life. I am constantly amazed at how easy it is to just "be" when I'm with him.

That's not to say I'm not putting any effort into this relationship. Of course I am, as is SO. We both greatly appreciate what we have and are nurturing it. But the more time we spend together, the more I realize how well we truly mesh together, and how one-sided this relationship is not.

I'm really liking this new normal I've discovered. :)

what a difference a year can make

A year ago, my husband kissed me goodbye, told me he loved me and walked out the door to go to work. I had no idea that he had packed some of his belongings in secret, loaded them in his truck, and didn't intend to ever come home again.

A year ago I started on the journey I'm on now. When I started off, I had no idea how I'd take the first steps, much less where they'd lead me. All I knew was that I had to start moving, so that I could start to rebuild my life.

In the past 12 months I have walked on paths I never imagined I would. A few times, I took the road more traveled, and was glad for the company on my journey. But when I could, I challenged myself to take the road less traveled, the paths I had previously not chosen while I strolled through life.

It turns out that choosing to take the road that leads out of my comfort zone has brought me some of the greatest rewards and joys.

A year ago, I was sure I would never be happy again. Today, I've had the biggest, goofiest grin on my face, and I'm happier than I've been in a very long time. :)